I can't force you to spend time with me. Or act like you care the way you smoothly say you do. But let me just say this. For every second you're not with me i'm off being me. I'm not dwelling on you. I'm not sitting around waiting for your call. I've never been that girl and I will never give anyone the satisfaction of making me that way. I'm watching myself sink slowly back into that chaotic lifestyle i've kind of missed. Maybe there's a balance that can exist. But right now it's off and i'm not taking blame for it. You can have some control over my time. But if you don't take it, it's hardly my fault.

idiot.