"I never understand these things I feel"

Ben Folds Five

They all keep asking me "Why did you do it?"

My answer can only be that it felt good to know, I don't have to listen. That society can only tell me what to do, but if I'm willing to face the consequences I don't have to follow them. That moment when I realized I am my own person, and I am capable of doing whatever I want, was so enlightening and strong and maybe temporarily blocked out some common sense, but I don't regret it.

The first night I decided nothing was really holding me here was one of the most amazing nights of my life. I didn't leave for a guy. I didn't leave to be some rebel. I left because I needed to know I had a choice. I left because sometimes you need to leave to figure out who you are. I know some people were hurt and I know they won't ever understand, but I can't always base my actions on everyone else's feelings. I don't want to compromise myself for someone's misguided perceptions of how things should be.